Ahhh it's been a couple of days and I have been feeling pretty low, I received some bad news on the night after I had last met with Haley, She's back with her Ex... I guess it's not necessarily bad news because she is happy...
I'll summarise the rest of the story that I had begun, It seems irrelevant now, basically we made it to the house party, everything was OK, I stayed there, I was far too drunk to get home, she made her way home, In the morning I asked if I could meet up with her because I was far too hungover to go to work, things seemed slightly off If I'm honest, She asked me why... I told her I didn't need a reason to meet up with my friends... She was having an argument with her dad. and the next thing I know I got a text saying "NEVER try to contact me again, If I see you out you will be a stranger to me, DON'T reply to this message"... I was destroyed. I hadn't known what I had done, I didn't text her back...
Later I re-read the message and realised it was something that Ben had sent to her... I had been an idiot, I should of comforted her instead I was feeling upset. I still felt upset afterwards because I was the cause for this text. We Talked later that evening and she told me she wasn't sure when but she might be getting back with him and that she was going to meet him later that day. I wasn't sure what to feel to be honest, everything seemed to be going so well, she didn't look happy with him on Friday when he kept pulling her aside... We discussed it and I tried to be as unbiased as possible, she obviously thought she could be happy with him and I wasn't going to be the one to stop that happiness from happening, I would still be her friend, so it wasn't a problem. I told her not to base her entire decision on memories alone though, after I met Ben in the pub, that man had no desirable qualities at all, other than looking good. people change maybe he had.
About 20 minutes after she had left to go and meet with him, I received a text from her asking me why "memories were not a good enough reason" I didn't want her to be distracted, he deserved her full attention, I told her to turn her phone off and not be distracted, everybody deserves a chance...
That ends the summary of the events, I'm sorry I didn't put as much detail into it as I had the rest of the story, But it seems that advice now would no longer be relevant. I haven't received any advice yet anyway, just people being interested in the story, glad it's not all going to waste :)
I shall continue now from Wednesday, The day of another friends birthday this time an 18th, same group of friends, only not so many of us. I'm not sure I should actually be writing this blog, I'm in a strange mood, I feel as though when I begin to recall what happens I have this great empty feeling that grows inside of my chest, it makes me feel sad. I'll continue anyway and see how far I get before I have to stop.
I was meeting Haley at the station, we would be meeting up with everyone else down at the pub later on, we had quite a long walk. the walk was nice, if somewhat awkward after the past few days I hadn't known what to think about where I stood in relation to her feelings, she wasn't back with Ben at this point in time but she had talked about it, I had no idea of her feelings about me. When we eventually arrived at the pub everything seemed a lot more easy going and things seemed as they were before, laughing, joking, pleasant.
Seem to be having some form of writers block, which makes no sense, because I'm writing memories, not making things up. let's just go from a different house party after the pub, I spent most of my time with her in the kitchen. fumbling around like a drunken fool and kissing her, one of our friends kept coming in and making suggestions about having sex, at the time it was humorous, on reminiscing It's not so much, I guess the one thing that happened on that night that actually sticks to mind the most was that she didn't want to have sex, I didn't either not in this state, she had said that she "wanted it to mean something" this made me happy. Although if I think of all the possible things this could mean, they could be vastly different, at first I took it as She wanted it to be special between me and her and not in some guys flat on a drunken night. But it could also of meant that she didn't have those kind of feelings towards me and didn't want anything to happen...
Thursday morning was good, I was hungover, I spoke to her a little on MSN, she was making jokes about certain things that happened the night before, all seems to be going well. I know the previous night she was feeling guilty about coming to the pub because she had made arrangements to meet up with Ben. So when she said she had to leave I knew where she was headed... I arranged to go and see my best friend who I hadn't see for a couple of weeks, just to have a catchup maybe talk about my situation a little and just have a lark like we usually do... I wished I had stayed the night now that I think about what was about to happen on my return.
I got back at 10pm I was incredibly tired, I headed straight for bed, I was awoken at 12:59 it was Haley, asking if I was online, I assumed she has just got back from Ben's house and she had something she wanted to tell me, I already knew what it was. I asked her how her evening had been, she said it was "OK" followed up by "I'm back with Ben" slightly better than OK then... I can't remember my exact response, I think I smiled and said It was good... We talked for about an hour and a half before I became too emotional and couldn't do it any more, I had previously told her I wouldn't of been hurt if she got back with him, But clearly... I was.
I was a mess, I sent her a text after she had left saying that I wanted to continue talking, I need to get these feelings out, She phoned me, I was so nervous about picking it up... It's just a friend there shouldn't be a problem, I answered and as soon as I did, tears started to form in my eyes. My lip was trembling. what the hell was wrong with me? I tried to talk, But it was hard. I was choking back tears. I apologised and said I couldn't do it, I started writing an email on facebook to her... and half way through I felt guilty, I shouldn't of hung up on her. I was being childish. I phoned her back we spoke and said we would meet sometime this week. I felt better... For now.
Saturday 20 March 2010
Wednesday 17 March 2010
Girls... WTFMAKESENSEPLEASE part 2
Right the start of a brand new day! So far this is going well! people like the drama, there's plenty more of that to come! So starting from where I left off...
Ben was heading to the toilet, I felt mildly uncomfortable on my approach back to Haley, In hindsight It was quite strange now that I think about it that Ben would be heading back to the toilet after just having been, at the time though, I had taken no notice of it.
Before I even reach Haley, Chris and Luke both grab a hold of me and tell me that I am now taking part in a game of of darts, I like darts, this should take my mind of what's happening around me. Haley approaches and I instantly get her to take part as well, the less distracted she is with Ben the better. Third Pint is gone now, Jake has also not left the bathroom in quite some time, something is defiantly not right, I ask if I can get Haley a drink as I am going to get one myself, she nods. slight smile. seems to be focusing on the darts.
It's so busy I've been waiting here for at least 5 minutes, and then! hand clamps down around my shoulder and spins me around, "We need to talk right now." it's Jake, "What the hell took you so long? Have you been in there the whole time?" "Come outside quickly" Before I have even ordered my pints I'm being dragged outside into the cold, this better be good. "Ben wants to beat you up man, he's just followed me to the bathroom and told me he has it in for you. We should get him first before he catches you off guard" I don't really know how to act, I've never been in this situation before and I haven't had a 'fight' since at least 10 years ago back in school. "I don't think that's a wise idea, he wont do anything with all my friends here anyway, best just to leave it. besides I can handle myself." But Jake is really eager to fight, "Look man if he even throws a punch or says something to you I'm going to get him" I'm pleased I have such a loyal friend, but he has no business here, I just give him a smile and my thanks, we head back inside.
I need to make out like nothing is up, So on my way to the bar I decide to buy a round of shots for the group, If anyone asks where I had been I could just say I was deciding on what shots to buy and was waiting for Jake to help me carry everything over. I decide on raspberry aftershocks, and a double for the birthday girl. I hadn't realised it but I was starting to feel the affects of my rapid alcohol consumption, I manage to spill one of the shots before I even managed to put it on the tray. If Ben does decide to pick a fight maybe I will need Jake's Help after all. We head on over, I gather everyone up, and as a usual occurrence when you buy everybody a shot, you suddenly become the best person in the world, everyone is happy, Haley hugs me, we all count to 3 and then down the shots. Haley, The Birthday Girl and another Girl "jenny" then head to the toilets together, meanwhile the darts game has finished, we are about to finish our drinks and head off to the night club. Chris and Luke and the rest of the group head outside, Paul joins them. "I'll wait for the girls and be with you in a second, I'll finish this pint quickly" Of course I will, I've been drinking them like someone drinking those little cups of water in a marathon!
Last gulp of the pint, it's finished. I grab my shirt and start doing the buttons up. I look up and to my horror it's Ben, This can't be good, his group of friends are staring at me from the bar, laughing and pointing, my group of friends are outside, the girls are still in the toilets. He walks straight up to me, his fists are clenched. My heart is pounding in my chest. My first fight in 10 years is about to start and I'm swaying on my feet already. "Do you know who I am?" His voice is quivering, I hadn't noticed it before, but he was quite a short guy and he didn't seem to have any muscle on him, not so much that I should be worried about, I work out and I was towered above him. He's looking directly in my eye and is standing uncomfortably close. "Yes I know who you are" I say it in my deepest most intimidating voice. It worked! he turns his back and is retreating! "He was about to hit you, what did you do" it was Jake, "Nothing, He asked if I knew who he was, and I told him I did".
"You guys look pretty damn serious! it's my birthday! none of that!" We apologise, "Where is Haley?" "She's Over with her Ex don't worry though, I'm sure it's fine. Just get her when she's done, we are headed to the clubs, see you there!" I'm doing it again, I'm burning holes into his back with my eyes I don't know where this anger is coming from, but I can see he is making her uncomfortable and I don't like it, "Hey you it's me "jenny" haven't seen you in awhile!" It was the girl who had joined Haley in the toilets earlier, "Oh hey, how's it going?" She put her hand on my shoulder "that doesn't look good is she OK?", "I hope so" To my Horror She started walking over there, I don' want a confrontation right now! this can't be good! She pulls out some lipstick, stands directly behind Ben and pretends to anally penetrate him! Haley Bursts into laughter, Ben tries to turn around to see what is happening and stumbles! this is brilliant he is just as or more so drunk than I am! He runs back to his group, his cheeks are flaming red. Perfect.
"Haley lets make a move, me, you, Jenny and Jake are meeting everyone up at the clubs, they have left" She grabs her coat finishes her pint and we head off. Just as we are out the door and away from the whole nightmare started in that pub, it follows us outside. It's not Ben this time though, It's one of the guys he was with, "HALEY!!!" he calls out, she turns around "Give me a second" She makes her way back towards the pub and has a talk with the guy, it's short. She's right back with me. "Is everything OK? you should just ignore him you know just enjoy the night and put him out of your mind" she just smiles and links my arm with hers, we are off to the clubs!
The club is packed! and it's good to be here, the sofas are comfy and me and Haley can just have a talk and a laugh like we normally do, and after that we can have a dance! the night is looking brighter already! I head off to the toilets, On my way I bump into Jake, "I need to leave, it's getting late" he tells me, "OK, no problem, you leaving right now?", "No I'll stay for a little longer, I think those guys might be waiting for you though, any problems give me a call and I'll be straight back." he heads off outside, I go to the toilets and start making my way back to Haley, she's already waiting for me right outside in the corridor. She pulls me towards the fire escape, opens the door and leaves it ajar while we are outside, she kisses me. This is great, She's Focusing on me and everything is back to normal. "Oi your not supposed to be out here! go back inside now before we ask you to leave!" We laugh "OK, sorry". We are back inside, she goes and takes a seat, I go to the bar, I'm waiting to be served, A girl I don't know approaches me just as the bar staff arrive, "after you" I say, "Don't be silly you were here first" I order my drinks. She puts her arm around my neck I feel slightly awkward as she turns me to face her directly, Lucky for me Jake sees and jumps right in between us. "Hey who's this lady then? you haven't introduced me!", "This is Jake, he's a real nice guy! have fun!" I give them a cheeky smile and head back to my table.
She explodes with laughter! "This is not funny! Have you seen the size of her! uggggh!", "which one is she?" I point her out, More laughter, Luke comes over to see what the commotion is about "what's so funny guys?", "See the girl Over there waving her arms around?! She just came onto him" she said pointing at me. Luke bursts into laughter as well "Oh man get in there!" I retort "I can't now! I passed her on too Jake!" Speaking of, he comes over and tells us it's time for him to leave, He asks to borrow my phone so he can call a taxi, I head outside with him while he phones and to say my goodbyes. After a short phone call, I head back in, Jenny approaches me "Guess who's here" I don't have to guess, It's pretty Obvious, it's Ben's group of people, although Ben is nowhere in site, this is fine though because we are all about to leave to head back to a house party.
Half way to the house party, me Haley, Bill (Birthday Girls Boyfriend) and another girl "Holly" are all laughing and joking. Me and Haley are ahead of the group and just chatting in general all seems to be well, Her phone rings. She tells me to wait where I am, I have a feeling it's Ben. I don't wait I follow her, I put my arms around her waist and tell her to hang up, Her lips are close to mine, I can hear him speaking, it's frantic, I tell her to hang up again. "Your either really out of breath or your crying" she says "I'm hanging up" She does and we kiss again. I'm feeling a lot better now, he's crying and drunk, while I am happy and kissing the girl I like. Things couldn't get better, and who would of thought they could get worse?
Bill and Holly Have left, they must be already at the house party, time had flown past in what seemed like a short phone call and embrace. We spot Luke walking down the road. "Hey I'm going to leave now, Going to Get some sleep" My stomach sinks, maybe everything is not as great as I thought, She wants to leave and it's relatively early. "Luke tell her she's coming with us!" I joke, He grabs her phone and runs off down the road! "well I guess your going to have to come now then..." She gives me a cold stare. "I didn't tell him to do that!" I shout after him but to no avail. he's long gone. "why would you want to go home anyway?", "just not in the mood", "it's Ben isn't it?", "Maybe" precisely the thing I didn't want to hear, he cried down the phone and now she is feeling guilty because she hung up on him. At this point in time we are standing directly outside of another girls house who I used to be "seeing" "You know she lives right there don't you?" It's one of Haley's friends. "Yes I know and I don't care, I like you...", "Call Luke again" I'm not sure what she's trying to do at this point, is she trying to make the girl I use to be seeing look out and see me because I will be shouting after somebody?! I shout anyway. "I'm over her".
I shall have to continue this again, Hopefully the story will be up to date by tonight, because tonight I am meeting with her again. so you guys should be up to speed with everything by then. Hopefully. If your still Reading.
Ben was heading to the toilet, I felt mildly uncomfortable on my approach back to Haley, In hindsight It was quite strange now that I think about it that Ben would be heading back to the toilet after just having been, at the time though, I had taken no notice of it.
Before I even reach Haley, Chris and Luke both grab a hold of me and tell me that I am now taking part in a game of of darts, I like darts, this should take my mind of what's happening around me. Haley approaches and I instantly get her to take part as well, the less distracted she is with Ben the better. Third Pint is gone now, Jake has also not left the bathroom in quite some time, something is defiantly not right, I ask if I can get Haley a drink as I am going to get one myself, she nods. slight smile. seems to be focusing on the darts.
It's so busy I've been waiting here for at least 5 minutes, and then! hand clamps down around my shoulder and spins me around, "We need to talk right now." it's Jake, "What the hell took you so long? Have you been in there the whole time?" "Come outside quickly" Before I have even ordered my pints I'm being dragged outside into the cold, this better be good. "Ben wants to beat you up man, he's just followed me to the bathroom and told me he has it in for you. We should get him first before he catches you off guard" I don't really know how to act, I've never been in this situation before and I haven't had a 'fight' since at least 10 years ago back in school. "I don't think that's a wise idea, he wont do anything with all my friends here anyway, best just to leave it. besides I can handle myself." But Jake is really eager to fight, "Look man if he even throws a punch or says something to you I'm going to get him" I'm pleased I have such a loyal friend, but he has no business here, I just give him a smile and my thanks, we head back inside.
I need to make out like nothing is up, So on my way to the bar I decide to buy a round of shots for the group, If anyone asks where I had been I could just say I was deciding on what shots to buy and was waiting for Jake to help me carry everything over. I decide on raspberry aftershocks, and a double for the birthday girl. I hadn't realised it but I was starting to feel the affects of my rapid alcohol consumption, I manage to spill one of the shots before I even managed to put it on the tray. If Ben does decide to pick a fight maybe I will need Jake's Help after all. We head on over, I gather everyone up, and as a usual occurrence when you buy everybody a shot, you suddenly become the best person in the world, everyone is happy, Haley hugs me, we all count to 3 and then down the shots. Haley, The Birthday Girl and another Girl "jenny" then head to the toilets together, meanwhile the darts game has finished, we are about to finish our drinks and head off to the night club. Chris and Luke and the rest of the group head outside, Paul joins them. "I'll wait for the girls and be with you in a second, I'll finish this pint quickly" Of course I will, I've been drinking them like someone drinking those little cups of water in a marathon!
Last gulp of the pint, it's finished. I grab my shirt and start doing the buttons up. I look up and to my horror it's Ben, This can't be good, his group of friends are staring at me from the bar, laughing and pointing, my group of friends are outside, the girls are still in the toilets. He walks straight up to me, his fists are clenched. My heart is pounding in my chest. My first fight in 10 years is about to start and I'm swaying on my feet already. "Do you know who I am?" His voice is quivering, I hadn't noticed it before, but he was quite a short guy and he didn't seem to have any muscle on him, not so much that I should be worried about, I work out and I was towered above him. He's looking directly in my eye and is standing uncomfortably close. "Yes I know who you are" I say it in my deepest most intimidating voice. It worked! he turns his back and is retreating! "He was about to hit you, what did you do" it was Jake, "Nothing, He asked if I knew who he was, and I told him I did".
"You guys look pretty damn serious! it's my birthday! none of that!" We apologise, "Where is Haley?" "She's Over with her Ex don't worry though, I'm sure it's fine. Just get her when she's done, we are headed to the clubs, see you there!" I'm doing it again, I'm burning holes into his back with my eyes I don't know where this anger is coming from, but I can see he is making her uncomfortable and I don't like it, "Hey you it's me "jenny" haven't seen you in awhile!" It was the girl who had joined Haley in the toilets earlier, "Oh hey, how's it going?" She put her hand on my shoulder "that doesn't look good is she OK?", "I hope so" To my Horror She started walking over there, I don' want a confrontation right now! this can't be good! She pulls out some lipstick, stands directly behind Ben and pretends to anally penetrate him! Haley Bursts into laughter, Ben tries to turn around to see what is happening and stumbles! this is brilliant he is just as or more so drunk than I am! He runs back to his group, his cheeks are flaming red. Perfect.
"Haley lets make a move, me, you, Jenny and Jake are meeting everyone up at the clubs, they have left" She grabs her coat finishes her pint and we head off. Just as we are out the door and away from the whole nightmare started in that pub, it follows us outside. It's not Ben this time though, It's one of the guys he was with, "HALEY!!!" he calls out, she turns around "Give me a second" She makes her way back towards the pub and has a talk with the guy, it's short. She's right back with me. "Is everything OK? you should just ignore him you know just enjoy the night and put him out of your mind" she just smiles and links my arm with hers, we are off to the clubs!
The club is packed! and it's good to be here, the sofas are comfy and me and Haley can just have a talk and a laugh like we normally do, and after that we can have a dance! the night is looking brighter already! I head off to the toilets, On my way I bump into Jake, "I need to leave, it's getting late" he tells me, "OK, no problem, you leaving right now?", "No I'll stay for a little longer, I think those guys might be waiting for you though, any problems give me a call and I'll be straight back." he heads off outside, I go to the toilets and start making my way back to Haley, she's already waiting for me right outside in the corridor. She pulls me towards the fire escape, opens the door and leaves it ajar while we are outside, she kisses me. This is great, She's Focusing on me and everything is back to normal. "Oi your not supposed to be out here! go back inside now before we ask you to leave!" We laugh "OK, sorry". We are back inside, she goes and takes a seat, I go to the bar, I'm waiting to be served, A girl I don't know approaches me just as the bar staff arrive, "after you" I say, "Don't be silly you were here first" I order my drinks. She puts her arm around my neck I feel slightly awkward as she turns me to face her directly, Lucky for me Jake sees and jumps right in between us. "Hey who's this lady then? you haven't introduced me!", "This is Jake, he's a real nice guy! have fun!" I give them a cheeky smile and head back to my table.
She explodes with laughter! "This is not funny! Have you seen the size of her! uggggh!", "which one is she?" I point her out, More laughter, Luke comes over to see what the commotion is about "what's so funny guys?", "See the girl Over there waving her arms around?! She just came onto him" she said pointing at me. Luke bursts into laughter as well "Oh man get in there!" I retort "I can't now! I passed her on too Jake!" Speaking of, he comes over and tells us it's time for him to leave, He asks to borrow my phone so he can call a taxi, I head outside with him while he phones and to say my goodbyes. After a short phone call, I head back in, Jenny approaches me "Guess who's here" I don't have to guess, It's pretty Obvious, it's Ben's group of people, although Ben is nowhere in site, this is fine though because we are all about to leave to head back to a house party.
Half way to the house party, me Haley, Bill (Birthday Girls Boyfriend) and another girl "Holly" are all laughing and joking. Me and Haley are ahead of the group and just chatting in general all seems to be well, Her phone rings. She tells me to wait where I am, I have a feeling it's Ben. I don't wait I follow her, I put my arms around her waist and tell her to hang up, Her lips are close to mine, I can hear him speaking, it's frantic, I tell her to hang up again. "Your either really out of breath or your crying" she says "I'm hanging up" She does and we kiss again. I'm feeling a lot better now, he's crying and drunk, while I am happy and kissing the girl I like. Things couldn't get better, and who would of thought they could get worse?
Bill and Holly Have left, they must be already at the house party, time had flown past in what seemed like a short phone call and embrace. We spot Luke walking down the road. "Hey I'm going to leave now, Going to Get some sleep" My stomach sinks, maybe everything is not as great as I thought, She wants to leave and it's relatively early. "Luke tell her she's coming with us!" I joke, He grabs her phone and runs off down the road! "well I guess your going to have to come now then..." She gives me a cold stare. "I didn't tell him to do that!" I shout after him but to no avail. he's long gone. "why would you want to go home anyway?", "just not in the mood", "it's Ben isn't it?", "Maybe" precisely the thing I didn't want to hear, he cried down the phone and now she is feeling guilty because she hung up on him. At this point in time we are standing directly outside of another girls house who I used to be "seeing" "You know she lives right there don't you?" It's one of Haley's friends. "Yes I know and I don't care, I like you...", "Call Luke again" I'm not sure what she's trying to do at this point, is she trying to make the girl I use to be seeing look out and see me because I will be shouting after somebody?! I shout anyway. "I'm over her".
I shall have to continue this again, Hopefully the story will be up to date by tonight, because tonight I am meeting with her again. so you guys should be up to speed with everything by then. Hopefully. If your still Reading.
Tuesday 16 March 2010
Girls... WTFMAKESENSEPLEASE Part 1
So, First blog ever where other to start than members of the opposite sex! Obviously this has never been done before!
OK, to get some perspective, I should probably tell you people that may end up reading these ramblings a little bit about myself, I'm a guy, which you should have figured out already! and I'm in my early 20s, I'm slightly 'intimidating' in my appearance, a few facial piercings, multicoloured hair, I guess you could call me emo. right that should be enough to get a basic Idea! now to get the show on the road!
Right I have decided to start this blog because the last 3 or so days, have been incredibly complex and confusing for me and I thought this might make some interesting reading, I will update this as often as possible, hopefully once a day as the story develops. So taking everyone of you readers back to Friday.
I've been seeing this girl for a couple of weeks now, have known her for about 6 months and recently we have spent a lot of time together, some would say we are technically "seeing" each other as a couple. two Tuesdays prior to this, we shared our first kiss. All seemed to be going well, today (Friday) we are both headed to a local pub to celebrate a friends 21st birthday! I am very excited because I am hoping we can take our relationship slightly further and maybe make it official that we are seeing each other. Well it would be just my luck that as soon as I arrive at the pub, I see a guy at the bar, dressed very smartly and I recognise him from somewhere. then it hits me, I have seen this fellow on YouTube! it's her Ex. I have a sinking feeling in my stomach and something tells me this night is not going to be as good a night as I had hoped for...
She arrives precisely 5 minutes after me, walks straight towards me and seems completely oblivious that her Ex is even in the same room! this is good... she's ignoring him. we hug and say hello and everything is fine, I order her a drink and the bar tender jokes at me and says I must be thirsty because I also order my second pint, I'm worried... SUDDENLY huge amounts of laughter from her Exs direction, everyone turns around, she looks completely shocked. and turns back around grabs my arm and tells me to go and find a seat at the opposite side of the pub. I act naive "what's wrong?" as if I don't already know. she wasn't ignoring him, she hadn't noticed him.
I'm glaring. I don't mean to be but I can't help myself, she's talking with her Ex and it looks very serious and awkward. I'm taking huge gulps of my pint and go up to order my third, I've been there for less than 10 minutes and no one has even arrived yet! Even the bartender knows something is awry..."what's wrong? don't you think you should slow down?" I laugh it off "I'm not sure just thirsty I'm fine, heh" (I should probably start naming people at some point, the girl I like is Haley, her Ex is Ben) I go back to my stool and sit down, the first of the rest of out party begin to arrive, first through the door is "Chris" he comes over gives me a big hug and asks where Haley is, I just nod in her direction, "Oh I see" he says "Everything OK?" I just smile "everything is fine." Haley eventually comes over, Third pint is about half way gone now. she's barley touched hers. it's still full. "I'm sorry she says, but I didn't think certain people were going to be here and they are" she looks uncomfortable, and agitated. "it's OK we don;t have to speak to anyone, everyone will be here soon". she's looking over her shoulder about 5 times every 20 seconds. "Who is over there?" "it's my Ex. he's the one in the suit." she gives an uneven smile. "I'll be right back, going to the toilets, Chris and Luke have just arrived, go say hello"
I'm locked in the cubicle and I'm sitting there thinking what the hell I can do to make this uneasiness disperse. But every trail of thought I follow seems to lead to a dead end, the sooner we leave for the nightclubs the better. I get out, wash my hands and start opening the door, it flys open, it's Ben. I walk off, as the door closes I hear him call my name, I ignore it and head back over to Haley and the rest of the people I am with, the birthday girl and everybody else has arrived now, and Haley looks a lot more relaxed. My good friend "Jake" is there too... He instantly sees something is wrong with me on my way back to the group and grabs me and walks me to the bar, "what's wrong you don't look to happy?", "Haley's Ex is here", "Want me to have a word with him?" On the inside I am happy, he's trying to look out for me, but I'm not going to cause a confrontation now or at any other point in time with him. "no, it's fine" Jake heads into the toilets and I order him a drink, I look over to see what's going on in the corner, looks like they are arranging some drinking games. Haley is sat in the corner, with Ben. I start heading over with my drink, not knowing what to do or think, but it's fine ben walks off and heads towards the toilet.
I shall have to conclude this tomorrow, it's 1:14 in the morning... Hope whoever does read this hangs around, perhaps offer some advice.
OK, to get some perspective, I should probably tell you people that may end up reading these ramblings a little bit about myself, I'm a guy, which you should have figured out already! and I'm in my early 20s, I'm slightly 'intimidating' in my appearance, a few facial piercings, multicoloured hair, I guess you could call me emo. right that should be enough to get a basic Idea! now to get the show on the road!
Right I have decided to start this blog because the last 3 or so days, have been incredibly complex and confusing for me and I thought this might make some interesting reading, I will update this as often as possible, hopefully once a day as the story develops. So taking everyone of you readers back to Friday.
I've been seeing this girl for a couple of weeks now, have known her for about 6 months and recently we have spent a lot of time together, some would say we are technically "seeing" each other as a couple. two Tuesdays prior to this, we shared our first kiss. All seemed to be going well, today (Friday) we are both headed to a local pub to celebrate a friends 21st birthday! I am very excited because I am hoping we can take our relationship slightly further and maybe make it official that we are seeing each other. Well it would be just my luck that as soon as I arrive at the pub, I see a guy at the bar, dressed very smartly and I recognise him from somewhere. then it hits me, I have seen this fellow on YouTube! it's her Ex. I have a sinking feeling in my stomach and something tells me this night is not going to be as good a night as I had hoped for...
She arrives precisely 5 minutes after me, walks straight towards me and seems completely oblivious that her Ex is even in the same room! this is good... she's ignoring him. we hug and say hello and everything is fine, I order her a drink and the bar tender jokes at me and says I must be thirsty because I also order my second pint, I'm worried... SUDDENLY huge amounts of laughter from her Exs direction, everyone turns around, she looks completely shocked. and turns back around grabs my arm and tells me to go and find a seat at the opposite side of the pub. I act naive "what's wrong?" as if I don't already know. she wasn't ignoring him, she hadn't noticed him.
I'm glaring. I don't mean to be but I can't help myself, she's talking with her Ex and it looks very serious and awkward. I'm taking huge gulps of my pint and go up to order my third, I've been there for less than 10 minutes and no one has even arrived yet! Even the bartender knows something is awry..."what's wrong? don't you think you should slow down?" I laugh it off "I'm not sure just thirsty I'm fine, heh" (I should probably start naming people at some point, the girl I like is Haley, her Ex is Ben) I go back to my stool and sit down, the first of the rest of out party begin to arrive, first through the door is "Chris" he comes over gives me a big hug and asks where Haley is, I just nod in her direction, "Oh I see" he says "Everything OK?" I just smile "everything is fine." Haley eventually comes over, Third pint is about half way gone now. she's barley touched hers. it's still full. "I'm sorry she says, but I didn't think certain people were going to be here and they are" she looks uncomfortable, and agitated. "it's OK we don;t have to speak to anyone, everyone will be here soon". she's looking over her shoulder about 5 times every 20 seconds. "Who is over there?" "it's my Ex. he's the one in the suit." she gives an uneven smile. "I'll be right back, going to the toilets, Chris and Luke have just arrived, go say hello"
I'm locked in the cubicle and I'm sitting there thinking what the hell I can do to make this uneasiness disperse. But every trail of thought I follow seems to lead to a dead end, the sooner we leave for the nightclubs the better. I get out, wash my hands and start opening the door, it flys open, it's Ben. I walk off, as the door closes I hear him call my name, I ignore it and head back over to Haley and the rest of the people I am with, the birthday girl and everybody else has arrived now, and Haley looks a lot more relaxed. My good friend "Jake" is there too... He instantly sees something is wrong with me on my way back to the group and grabs me and walks me to the bar, "what's wrong you don't look to happy?", "Haley's Ex is here", "Want me to have a word with him?" On the inside I am happy, he's trying to look out for me, but I'm not going to cause a confrontation now or at any other point in time with him. "no, it's fine" Jake heads into the toilets and I order him a drink, I look over to see what's going on in the corner, looks like they are arranging some drinking games. Haley is sat in the corner, with Ben. I start heading over with my drink, not knowing what to do or think, but it's fine ben walks off and heads towards the toilet.
I shall have to conclude this tomorrow, it's 1:14 in the morning... Hope whoever does read this hangs around, perhaps offer some advice.
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